25 September 2017 @ 05:17 pm
Title: Ren-Children

Summary: After the kidnapping of a Force Sensitive Poe Dameron, Ben is sent to Jakku for his safety. Years later, their paths collide and shape the future of the galaxy.

Prompt: Altered Past

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Author's Notes: No, I don't know how this got into some food-centric content. I am so sorry.

Fic under cut. )
Current Mood: worried

Loving a fictional character not only brings in the aforementioned trouble from the outside - it also tends to lead to turmoil on the inside.

The biggest issue for me is that I don't know what Jean-Luc would actually think of me if he was real. He's from an advanced future where Earth has gotten rid of its demons and is a founding and important member of the (usually peaceful) United Federation of Planets - a future where replicators take care of your every need and no one has to live in poverty, etc etc. This is all great, of course, but it also makes me wonder just why a man like Jean-Luc would bother with an anxious, emotionally unstable and fragile man like me from Earth's violent and dark past who has absolutely nothing to offer except his unconditional love.

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Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: The Bee Gees - Words
22 September 2017 @ 06:20 pm
Title: Dawn of Destruction

Summary: Bespin is evacuated, and Rey has to face Kylo Ren once more.

Prompt: Abandon Ship!

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Author's Notes: Was about to get a continuation of my "Shara Lives" story -- and I will get to that, never fear -- but let's say a bit of a recent revelation of awful about The Last Jedi sort of got me typing in my main verse again. Anyway, here's the Bespin evacuation scene.

Fic under cut. )
Current Mood: recumbent
22 September 2017 @ 12:37 pm
Title: Second Mother

Summary: In a galaxy where Shara Bey lived, how would things have turned out differently?

Prompt: Dead Character(s) Alive

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Fic under cut.  )
Current Mood: accomplished
21 September 2017 @ 03:01 am
Prompt: Rare Pairs

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Artist's Notes: Was mostly thinking of doing things on the Ben and Poe side, as that's mostly where I do my work -- in the backstory. Mostly they're based off my story "The Broken Edge", a.k.a. my giant-as-heck backstory for Ben and company. 

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Current Mood: artistic

I've talked about a lot of hows, whens, wheres and whys, but now is the time to talk about the elephant in the room:

The "what?!" factor.

Being as open about my love for Jean-Luc as I am doesn't exactly bring in approval all the time (although I do feel the need to point out that a lot of people are very supportive) - many of those who encounter me probably wonder just how screwed up I must be to have fallen in love with a fictional character.

My first instinct is to react to this with anger, but then I remember that I have chosen to look at things from a different perspective these days: It's true that I'm a victim of severe (male) emotional abuse that went on every day for about 25 years of my life and that this still haunts me today in more ways than I care to count - but that is precisely why it's actually a miracle that I'm still capable of loving another person (real or not), much less a man.

Of course people who glance at my social media profiles think I'm "crazy", but since they don't know the backstory of it all, I can't really blame them.

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Current Mood: contemplative
19 September 2017 @ 05:30 pm
Title: The Prince, the Knight and the Dragon

Summary: Once upon a time, there was a prince, a knight and a dragon. This is their story.

Prompt: AU -- Fairy Tale/Myth

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Fic under cut.  )
Current Mood: nervous
19 September 2017 @ 12:34 pm
Title: Golden

Summary: The fallout of Ben's descent into darkness, and Poe's new role.

Prompt: Gold

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Fic under cut. )
Current Mood: sleepy
19 September 2017 @ 09:01 am
Title: Broken

Summary: An amnesiac Poe joins Finn and Rey on their quest.

Prompt: Memory Loss

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Fic under cut.  )
Current Mood: lethargic
19 September 2017 @ 06:31 am
Title: Dark Labyrinth

Summary: Poe visits Kylo Ren in prison.

Prompt: Revenge

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Fic under cut. )
Current Mood: stressed


There is one question I have asked myself many, many times (and about which I have written endless fan fics): What would it actually mean to be in a relationship with Jean-Luc Picard?

A few thoughts before I give an answer:

I am well aware of the fact that Jean-Luc is a starship captain first and foremost. His ship is more important than anything else, including a potential partner. For example, if Jean-Luc was forced to choose between saving his ship and saving me, it would be his duty to choose the ship. I would understand (I would even go as far as to say I would tell him to "get the hell on with it and save the fucking ship already"), but it would probably still not be as easy as it sounds now.

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Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Reba McEntire - And Still
15 September 2017 @ 09:29 pm
I have just realised that I've not been posting here for a while so just checking in to let folks know I'm still here just been really busy.

I'm a carer for my elderly aunt, and I've been trying to arrange additional support for her. We've now got a lovely NHS Support Worker who is going to start taking my aunt out during the day, twice a week which will give me some free time and a chance to recharge my batteries, lol. Also hoping to get her on a waiting list for Sheltered Housing where there would be a Warden nearby in case she needs help. Moving into one would be perfect for night time as her next door neighbour is moving home and she is feeling vulnerable at the moment (although the area where she lives is quiet and the other neighbours are friendly and helpful). Also trying to get her to go to the local Social Club as she has indicated that she is feeling a bit lonely and wants to be around people her own age (she's 96).

I'm looking forward to the end of September/beginning of October as most of the shows I like to watch will be re-starting around that time. Although the summer lull has given me the chance to catch up on other shows, lol.

Sami is now fully recovered from her injury and is loving the new ball I gave her to play on the field with. Hopefully, the weather will stay mild so we can continue to go to the area as it can become like a swamp really quickly.